implosions

i'm in such a state of panic right now

i
-just finished work at 3am
-can't sleep
-have class at 10am
-am taking an anatomy lab practical at 340pm
-haven't studied at all
-have been ignoring my ortho boss's phone calls and e-mails
-missed her annual party on sat. without prior notice
-need to either call her tomorrow or die of guilt
-am totally freaking out about what to say
-am glad to only be volunteering, otherwise,
-would've been fired by now
-am the worst person ever
-am afraid of the future

edit: this entry is dumb. never again?